Reality Bites... (>_<)

.  I kept on saying that there should no more be a continuation of this, but still having a second thought. Honestly, I’m still thinking of him, still wondering and still hoping that one day, it would work. But no matter what the circumstances will be… I’ll make myself stronger so when the next sudden changes occur… It would be a lot better. 

Why does it have to be complicated when it mustn’t be like this? Why do I need to think it all over again when I already have the answer on my mind? Why is it feels so hard to stop when I know that’s the right thing to do? 

I always believe that everything happens for a reason. However, that reason can make or break ourselves. Am I really prepared for that? Everyone knew how I really like him. My friends witnessed how I almost lost myself in the process. They kept on telling me to end it, but I’m not listening. I’m not… because I can’t… 

I’ve never imagined that there will be a time that I’ll be in this exact situation. I used to be strong, but still I ended up being weak. I remember my close friend once told me that I should follow my heart, but I should also bring with me my brain. Then, I started thinking about it. If I’ll follow what my heart says, I’ll end up losing my brain. If I'll follow what my brain says, I’ll end up breaking my heart.  Tell me, can I choose without hurting and can I let them both survive?

I just want to be happy. I just want to love and to be loved as well. Unfortunately, it’s not happening. It’s not happening with him. It feels so difficult because I tried to make it work. I’ve changed. I did things that I never thought I could. But I guess... It couldn't...  #realitybites101